things

Well, I don't know what thing I must write down here. But actually, few days ago, I had a lot of inspiration but not now. So now, I'll talk about a random things which I like.
Some people and maybe all of people have their own things that they like, right? And that's included me. I have a lot but I can't manage it well. I like reading, writing, listening to the music but not playing, getting a part in a play, debating, and stuff. But unfortunately, I feel not so confident with some of that stuffs and the most is debating. I feel so stupid when I'm on it, I don't get my soul with it, but I realize that I like it, I like debating, whether I'm not a good debater yet.
When I'm on a battle, before my turn I have my confident, I write the main points for rebuttal, I arrange the arguments with full of 'like' things, but all that things will be disappeared when I get my stage. Every single rebuttal that I have been arranged are not talked clearly in my turn. I feel like I just repeating all stuff I say before, I feel like I can't control my self and I feel like I can't understand what I write down, so that I say randomly.
Honestly, I really want to repair all those things of mine, I want to be a good debater instead, I want to do my turn as perfect as I act in a play. I want it! I want to bring cup for my shs. I want it, not wish it btw.
Well, I realize something here. There will be nothing if we want something without work for it. So, I must work out my ability to make it be true. Actually I am doing it, I'm in a process of changing, and hoping Allah bless my way. 
And for all people who think that debate is easy, debate doesn't need hard thoughts and debate is something you can learn for a while than you become a master of it. No! Big NO! What you think is not what happen in reality if you think debate with that thoughts. Debate is not as simple as like that, dude. When you think debate is only talking without thinking, you probably don't know yet and never talk about politic and stuff without knowing the status quo in front of people.